Revelation

While I was in the shower, and thinking - because the shower is a great place to do some uninterrupted thinking - I had an epiphany of sorts. I realized that the last time I had chemo in 2000, I had the wonderful respite in the midst of it all of seeing all of my family and friends. Afterwards, however, I had a very difficult time with the last two AC treatments because after all that anticipation and being so surrounded by people, I had nothing to look forward to.

As I stood in the shower this morning, and reflected on our hike up Mt. Whitney and the days ahead of me, I found myself with a huge smile on my face (which probably looks pretty silly in the shower). What I realized is that this time around, I feel so completely different, because each and every day I have something to look forward to.

Pretty cool stuff.

5 comments:

    Yes you do.

    showers are awesome...

    : )

    I like your new place! **HUGS!!**

    I like your new place; I've added it to my Google Reader feeds (since I can't read Blogger at work anymore - stupid web filter!). You ARE strong, and I know you'll beat it again. xoxo

    Oh no no no no no. I didn't know it was back. Fuck. But you will beat it. You are so strong and amazing and inspirational. I am so glad to know your blogsite. I will check here regularly. Take care!! xoxo